Had lots of people over for food and drinks. It was nice seeing everyone that came over and for the most part I was enjoying myself. The heat bothered most of the people but later in the evening it was more comfortable to go out side and relax.
7th of July
Had a wonderful night with Greg for our 2 year anniversary. I was surprised by a new scanner/printer which I would have never of guessed. I got him a few shirts since year 2 is supposed to be Cotton. We mostly spent time with each other since he took the day off from work. We also went to Three forks Since I have never been there. I can really see why he loves the food there.
I get that a lot lately with the drama streaming down from all over the place. How do I justify my reasoning for playing a game that seems to cause a bit of stress?
1) My friends play it and those people I enjoy playing with I get a smile on a face. That to me is priceless
2) Cheaper than having to pay for some over priced drink at a bar just to listen to others be catty to other people.
3) No matter what the people I am around there is going to be drama. Let's face it cool people are like honey and Drama Lamas want to lick them.
4) Story lines are fun and help inspire me to do other artsy stuff
5) I have fun
6) I like the distraction better than TV at times.
So some people worry about my stress levels well I can honestly state I am a lot better than where I was at and getting through it. Also I have weeded out certain things out of my life to make it more stress free. I refuse to give up and run away from an issues that happen but with certain people that have made up of their mind and I have lost respect for in some form or fashion we wont go into the details on it.
Kind of hoping this weekend will be a little more fun and less stress since we have a friends wedding to go to, but Sunday I am dreading since I have to go over to my mom's again. I am at a point in my life where things are becoming more and more complicated and somethings I dreamed about having or doing are slipping away. I guess this is part of growing up having to give up somethings for others. I just kind of wish it wasn't dealing with school or having children, but I will make do with what I have and try to do my best to get a job that I am happy with and get things taken care of.
- Mood:awake
I had a nice a weekend for the most part at A-kon. I just wish I could have spent more time with my best friend outside the convention. I feel pretty drained right now and like I am coming down with something. Last night I had a huge melt down and it lasted for almost 2 hours. I went to my theropist today and told what all had happened and she showed me a diagram and showed me how I just let things build up on me and how people have certain levels before they get upset. I told her everything that I had blocked out and just broke down again today. I didnt realize how hurt I am inside how many losses I have encountered, how much anger I have for situation I feel are unjust. I had blocked out so much stored it all up that it just got bad. I feel better now just drained. I was told to write letters to all the people I had lost in my life that I felt I didnt get a chance to say it to them. I also need to just write down things that bother me alot more than I have been.
I know what I need to do now and what how I am going to approach things. I pretty sure I am going to be giving up a few things in my life that I know will be for the best. I have to confront a few more issues just deal with it and move on.
How I feel lately is
Unsure
annoyed
low selfesstem
tired
undesirable
ill
How I feel about certain people that affect me Negtively
annoyed
disappointed
Enraged
stand offish
distant
- Mood:crushed
So this Semester I made 3 A's and one B.
and so now total Credits toward my degree is
57.000
GPA is 3.8Well hopefully I can push it up to a 4.0 in the next Semester.
- Mood:
chipper
Now to continue on and knock out Summer Classes.
- Mood:determined
visited 25 states (50%)
Create your own visited map of The United States or another interesting project
- Mood:
calm
Women's restroom just down the hall, fucking feels like you are in Houston!! WTF??!
Go into the digital editting lab.. Fucking cold as hell. How cold? When you are losing feeling in your feet and finger tips.. and they are turning blue.. And I am not the only one so STFU polar bears!
*groans* I would just like this class to hurry up so I can take my flipping test and turn in my porject.
tomorrow.. I head to the shrink .. W00t!
- Mood:
aggravated
- Mood:
calm
- Mood:creative
- Mood:
amused
Warning bitch mode on:
I am overwhelmed at school and other things in my life. Perhaps I have come off rather short with people or a bit rude to others. I apologize if anyone feels that way, however I would greatly appreciate people not pushing the point with me and continue to ask me what is wrong then following up with Greg asking about me. 1) If I feel you need to know I will tell you, don't go behind my back being nosy. 2) Please do no push the point with me when I say no, I don't feel like it or GFO. 3) If you can't follow 1 or 2 and know you can't I respectfully ask you leave me a lone PERIOD.
It's just fucking annoying having to deal with petty issues like these on a daily bases. I have more pressing issues to deal with at the moment. I personally would like to thank Redwing for being very cool about everything and Greyboy for taking my mind off things.
This weekend:
People that are apart of the guild or will be apart of the horde guild “Dark Phoenix” There is a gather at my house this Saturday about 7 ish. If you want to come let me know through e-mail or call me.
Tonight
I will be working mostly on my projects and having some time to myself. So I will not be at James and Mel's tonight.
General update
I am okay just a little drained and moody. I miss everyone and hope that everyone is fine.
- Mood:busy
I am all fuck tired at moment from recovering from illness, road trip and bleeding for a week.
I did in fact get a lot of clay tools for X-mas, art books and japanese cook book. I have to go and pick up some books on CD, Ski clothing at Dicks, See if I need to take the car in for service and see Mom to give her gifts. Needless to say I am kind of in a pissy mood about having to run around in a time crunch to get this all done and then get ready for our next trip.
Oh well it's worth it. I just have to be ready for school on Jan 20th.
Oh yeah .. made all A's this last Semester....
- Mood:busy

- Mood:
crazy
When I get home tonight I am hoping we can save the file and transfer them to my hard drive. So Please Pray for me I get all my files. in the mean time I did save this one I did work on in class today.
I am kind of depressed atm and wish I would stop making silly mistakes like this. In the mean time I am trying to get in to the National Technical Honor Society
Your result for The Perception Personality Image Test...
NFPC - The Artist

You perceive the world with particular attention to nature. You focus on what's in front of you (the foreground) and how that fits into the larger picture. You are also particularly drawn towards the colors around you. Because of the value you place on nature, you tend to find comfort in more subdued settings and find energy in solitude. You like to deal directly with whatever comes your way without dealing with speculating possibilities or outcomes you can't control. You are in tune with all that is around you and understand your life as part of a larger whole. You are a down-to-earth person who enjoys going with the flow.
The Perception Personality Types:

- Mood:creative
You are a Firebender!

The first firebenders were taught by Dragons. To the Fire Nation, fire represented destruction and anger was central to firebending. True firebending involves balance, emotional stability and inner calm, as fire truly represents life. Firebending draws its power from the sun and is stronger during the day, strongest during Sozin’s comet which arrives every hundred years. Firebending is not possible during a solar eclipse.
I WON!!!!!!! *SQUEEE*
Thier comment
"The post work gives this entry a classic style. The composition is excellent. "
- Mood:
ecstatic




