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Finally Friday is here

Spent time with mom last night looking at very nice things that I can not afford just yet. GAH!
And then had Italian food.

Went home and made the comment we needed a bigger house being silly and damn it all he thinks baby again. When I ment I want pretty pieces of furinture that I saw.

So I told him up front how I felt about it. He says he can't help it. I said try to please cause even if you think about it just try to stop your self.

Any ways, he got really defensive over the situation and said he was sorry. See I am not trying to cornor him or state he is a jack ass just saying your reactions some times hurts me. And I know he doesnt mean it. Hello! Not every one have the intent in hurting those they love. That is understandable.

Compromise that I suppose I need to accept or just deal with, grow a new shield around when he reacts that way so I dont get bothered by it.

Just seems to bug me alot now cause now I kind of feel like the bad guy. I never thought that stating your honesty about how you feel can make you feel so bad.

Other than that I would like to go on a solo date with just him and me. But I dont see that happening any time soon because it seems to get so busy or we have alot of friends that want to hang out. Not saying that bad. Just cant really talk about things.

=/

I just want to get things done move on to other challenges.

But any ways, I had alot of dreams last night with blood on my hands.
Looking up and just feeling anger. I dont know if it's the fustration I am feeling this week. But I really cant wait to spend some time with my friends.

I think Sunday I am just locking my self up and read a few books.
I am sick of having to attempt escapes from reality just to be pulled back in and slapped about cause stupid things that could eaisly be resolved.

Any ways I guess it's time to shead the old funk and get a new additude now.

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auxiliarypriest
May. 2nd, 2003 07:53 am (UTC)
Its okay phoenix. Us guys get a little worried when you gals start talking about relationships. It'll be okay with you and your man, just talk it out, and give him a chance to do something sweet for you to make up what he's done. Take it one day at a time and everything will be cool. Now , lets see a smile.
kangitanka3
May. 2nd, 2003 10:48 am (UTC)
*HUG*
Hey, love!

Sorry GothBoy's commitment issues are causing you problems, love.

As for you never getting time alone, I'm *SO* there with you on that one!

Hope things improve soon! *hug*

Yes, go take some me time for yourself this weekend, honey -- you deserve it! :~)

Love,
~~Kt3 the Stressed~~

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