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Now for a real update lol

I think I am doing alright no break downs or looking at the mirror and wanting to break it or tossing the cell phone out the window while drive. I feel fine and finding a little more of those missing pieces if that makes sense.


Some how after the conversation with my mom in the broken down pick up truck [God does that sounds like I am a true Texan or what?] I realize I need to live my life on my own pace, and if I share that path with someone they are sharing mine and well we both need to just learn to keep up or slow down. I am learning that words can be formed and communicated out with me getting so frustrated with them.

Realizing that well I am alright for a person and people will either like me, tolerate me or hate me. But the answer is Do I love myself? Do I respect myself? Can I tolerate myself?

I find that the answer is yes.. So I am fine… Baby steps.. But I feel the sun shinning on this path

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fugusha_kisai
Apr. 6th, 2005 04:30 pm (UTC)
Baby Steps eh? What about Bob? and for that matter what of Gill?!
All kidding aside, You always know you have other people to love you, tolerate you, and respect you. Knowing that, you can learn to do it yourself. =^_^=
twilightfenix
Apr. 6th, 2005 04:32 pm (UTC)
Kind of tuff sometimes when you are rebuilding your self back up after allowing yourself to destory your self..

But that is what I am working on ^_^
nick1983
Apr. 6th, 2005 05:05 pm (UTC)
moi
If you need help with building I am not only an obnoxious online entity, but I double as a great self construction worker. I can set out plans, work calender dates, cut down carbs work on blue prints and.... ok theres too many bad jokes I could make about where this is going but you get the underlieing idea that you have a nutcase for a friend. Ok? ok.
twilightfenix
Apr. 6th, 2005 05:45 pm (UTC)
Re: moi
Yeah but Nick this is my Journy for myself to fix myself .. No one can help me on this part but me.. You can't help me realize I love myself or respect myself.

But thank you ;)
dave_the_pak
Apr. 6th, 2005 06:33 pm (UTC)
Re: moi
That is very true...it is a personal journey....however, many of us have walked it before, and at times that fact is comforting.

In life we have to accecpt and love ourselves before others can be expected to...otherwise who is it they love and on what conditions?

peace and love,

Dave
twilightfenix
Apr. 6th, 2005 07:08 pm (UTC)
Re: moi
very good point Dave *huggles* Luff ya hunny very much and miss you
sandmansister
Apr. 7th, 2005 07:53 am (UTC)
Live your own way and in your own time, to the best of your abilities. It's all anyone can ask of you.

*hugs*

Good to see the light dawning for you, my fiery friend.
twilightfenix
Apr. 7th, 2005 08:35 am (UTC)
*hugs* I think that book is helping me grasp a few things
sandmansister
Apr. 11th, 2005 08:48 pm (UTC)
Yay, I am glad you are finding helpful bits in it! I sure got a few Cosmic Bricks to the HeadTM from it.
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