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Weekend update


I had a nice a weekend for the most part at A-kon. I just wish I could have spent more time with my best friend outside the convention. I feel pretty drained right now and like I am coming down with something. Last night I had a huge melt down and it lasted for almost 2 hours. I went to my theropist today and told what all had happened and she showed me a diagram and showed me how I just let things build up on me and how people have certain levels before they get upset. I told her everything that I had blocked out and just broke down again today. I didnt realize how hurt I am inside how many losses I have encountered, how much anger I have for situation I feel are unjust. I had blocked out so much stored it all up that it just got bad. I feel better now just drained. I was told to write letters to all the people I had lost in my life that I felt I didnt get a chance to say it to them. I also need to just write down things that bother me alot more than I have been.

 

I know what I need to do now and what how I am going to approach things. I pretty sure I am going to be giving up a few things in my life that I know will be for the best. I have to confront a few more issues just deal with it and move on.

How I feel lately is

Unsure

annoyed

low selfesstem

tired

undesirable

ill

 

How I feel about certain people that affect me Negtively

annoyed

disappointed

Enraged

stand offish

distant

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dream_endless
Jun. 1st, 2009 09:42 pm (UTC)
**HUGS**
flemco
Jun. 1st, 2009 10:25 pm (UTC)
I swear to do my damnedest to combat your "undesireable" suspicions. :D
dream_endless
Jun. 1st, 2009 10:46 pm (UTC)
Seconded
xkookykrysx
Jun. 2nd, 2009 06:30 am (UTC)
*hug* be well.
wyldkyss
Jun. 2nd, 2009 09:17 pm (UTC)
I.. what? You were there?

I didn't see so many people that I wanted to see :(
sandmansister
Jun. 2nd, 2009 09:18 pm (UTC)
I am glad you are working with someone, and that you have a plan. This is of the good. And I am for whatever is good for my fiery sistah.
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