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Okay I dont know why, But I am getting this over whelming feeling of sadness and betrayal.. I dont know why, but it's bugging me alot. Is everyone okay?

:: rubs her head ::


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Dec. 2nd, 2002 09:34 am (UTC)
Not that, but I have been edgier than usual. While that's understandable given the circumstances lately, the total is far greater than the sum of its parts. Doesn't quite make sense.

Plus, this SlayerGrrl is feeling more swiss cheesy than usual. Ooof! Medic!
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:38 am (UTC)

I hope things improve.. I am just extremly worried
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:11 am (UTC)
sounding in
I'm alright for the most part today, having more issues with my father. But still kickin' for now. Hope you are doing well.
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:29 am (UTC)
Wonder where the moon is today. Mine started last night and hasn't shaken free yet. Called Cailet to try to chatter myself back to a state of lucidity. It's mostly worked.
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:43 am (UTC)
I cant really say this is the normal Umm thing .. I think this is something really bugging me.. I mean I dont feel hurt .. not reason to be.. but I have fighting back crying most of the day now.. And I just have this great feeling of doom =/
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:58 am (UTC)
Hmmm. Makes me wonder who else got "pinged"... Vail? Trot? Heron?

I don't have a feeling of doom, just a fatigued despair. :P Kinda like... lie around and mope sort of feeling.

Personally, I just thought I was intensely sleep-deprived and therefore emotionally exhausted.
Dec. 2nd, 2002 11:13 am (UTC)
I dont know.. I hope it's just me wigging out and nothing bad..
Dec. 2nd, 2002 10:49 am (UTC)
Yeah, something's been amiss since Saturday night when we got home - or, at least, that's when I noticed it. Thought it was just me. Although, there were signs of it while I was gone as well... Odd physical reactions, feelings of impending doom...

Lemme know what's happening, all right? Weirdness...
Dec. 2nd, 2002 12:15 pm (UTC)
Might be me....
I doubt that I've been amongst you all long enough to set off the "ping" meter though....

I'm having lots of emotional problems still - feelings of loneliness, betrayal, very depressed. It really hit hard Wed. at work and got severe again Saturday, dispite my best efforts to try to keep it in check. Today has been particularly poignant - trying to fix some of my screw ups with friends via email & cell phone... which is very heart-rending too. It's personal & if you ain't getting direct info from me about it - don't sweat it. :-) I just hate hurting people I Love... especially because of my own baggage...

I would like to apologize if I'm setting everyone off... I'm trying very hard to get it together & fast...and I would be *very* complimented if I have become a good enough friend to be the reason for setting off everyone's "psychic meter"... very complimented that I have been accepted that deeply into the group. Ya'll let me know if any other source can be identified.

Send positive energy my way if you can. I'm seeing my therapist Wed. maybe she can change my meds to something stronger. *LOL*

Warm Hugs,
Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:22 pm (UTC)
Re: Might be me....

If anything you needed that Cherrie up! CAuse there is always a bowl of love near by =D
Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:37 pm (UTC)
Re: Might be me....
Thanks. Why is it that whenever you need "just sex" all the partners come out of the woodwork, but when you need "true love" no one seems to be there?

*sigh* I've just got to get myself stable so I take advantage of the attention I'm getting from all over... i just wish ONE loved me. I keep hurting the one I truly want and can't get rid of the ones that just won't work!!!! I need to just swear off sex - time to break out those self-help books on sexual addiction... ;-)

Thanks, Hon!
Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:45 pm (UTC)
Re: Might be me....
I used to wonder that myself.. Cause I used to have that issue when I was younger and just not caring, but really I did care and I was just destorying myself. But one thing is true. Good things do come along and just got to makesure you grab on it while you can.

: hugs :
Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:53 pm (UTC)
Re: Might be me....
Thanks... tell him that - I saw a good thing & grabbed... apparently I gripped too tight & it made him uncomfortable and now I just wish I could get myself stable and stop hurting myself or others...

Dec. 2nd, 2002 12:27 pm (UTC)
*is doing good*

Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:24 pm (UTC)
Re: =n.n=
: pounce and huggles::
Dec. 2nd, 2002 12:58 pm (UTC)
Checking in...
No nega-pings today, in fact, no pings at all lately.

Though yesterday I was really lazy, at least until Nemoel came by. :)

(who hopes all will be well...)
Dec. 2nd, 2002 01:26 pm (UTC)
Re: Checking in...
: huggles: Well I am glad it's not you.. Just wish I knew what this was all about
Dec. 2nd, 2002 02:02 pm (UTC)
Ah...I had something happen. It hurt a lot...
But, even though I haven't really shown all of
what I've been feeling lately... There's been
a lot of negative feelings going on. On Thursday
all I could feel was anger building up... and then
throughout the weekend the feeling of just being
completely ugly has overwhelmed me more so than
usual. *Shrugs*
Dec. 3rd, 2002 11:20 pm (UTC)
...it's me. The first step of my nefarious Grand Master Plan has taken place. I have exiled Kingwamba, Redwing and Yinshu to the Nether Realms, have brought Heronmarkblade, Katjabee and Trotfox under my sway so they can never realise their royal heritage and have devoured the souls of BB73, Cailet and KookyKrys! Nothing can stop me now! *SILLY evil grin*

*hugs and giggles*

Seriously, nothing amiss here. No pings to speak of. But then I tend to walk a different road than most of the Family where such things are concerned. Damn Seeric nature o' mine, I guess.

Love ya and hope things have improved since you wrote this!

~~KT the Wise and Foolish, Not Necessarily In That Order~~
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