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Don’t get me wrong I had a blast for some parts with my family and friends. Just for the most part it's been a crappy month for me. I have people I am allowing to add stress in my life when I don’t need it. I have other things going on I rather not get into cause I think only two people about it.

Then after yesterday of working, being in pain then coming home, having a talk, cleaning dealing with other things and a boy friend I love so much that right now I am just so senestive about any one teasing me I am starting to cry.

Again today I was talking to Goth boy and he started to tease me again and for some reason I didn’t want to take it and I told him I felt insulted things got really silent over the phone and I said I am sorry but this isn’t the appropriate time for this. I felt my self-wanting to cry yet again.
Told him I didn’t mean to be a killjoy.

But there is so much I can take out of a year. And just take it all in. I finally see a toll on my body in allot of ways. I am finding out I am becoming more senestive to certain foods and meds. I had fucking quit smoking to prevent my nose from bleeding almost everyday. And I am so sick when people say.. AGAIN? Thanks allot for the support I hope to hell you get better support then you are giving me. ARGHH!!! All I want to do is get the hell out of this office for the day drink and party hard and forget about this BULLSHIT of Month and move on.

And in 2003 and I am not going to allow anyone to get away with BS. I am going to be brutally honest and either people can deal with or move on. Cause I am really tired of accommodating others

But at least I feel happy about getting my thank you notes done.


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Jan. 2nd, 2003 03:48 pm (UTC)
Hope you have a *MUCH* better January and new year in general than you did December!

~~KT3: "If you need to talk, love, I'll listen!"~~
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