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Have you ever lost faith?
In what? Or who?
How did you over come it ?
Or did you?


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Mar. 10th, 2003 06:51 pm (UTC)
I lost faith in organized religion in college. i was raised in a very laid back Xtian church that was accepting of just faith in general. I told my youth minister about my beliefs (henotheist) in high school and she was fine with it.

After I went to college, I pretty much distanced myself from organized religion because everything I found was too closed-minded for my comfort. Then when I was a Sophomore in college, my first boyfriend (then best friend) committed suicide. The two things that hit me hardest were:
A. the minister at the service going on about how sad it was that he'd been expressing interest in getting back into the church, and now he'd damned himself to hell and every good thing he'd ever done in his life was erased.
B. His sister talking about how he'd talked to her a few days before while depressed, and she'd told him "honestly" that she didn't think God could love him as he did others because of the sins he'd committed after he left the church as a kid. "I didn't think he'd take it THAT way," she whined. I turned and walked out because I refused to dishonor my beloved friend's funeral by beating his sister into a bloody pulp.

At that point I decided that what went on between me and the Powers That Be was my own business, and any God who would smugly approve of anything that I'd seen that day was not someone I would speak to, much less worship with love. Any God who didn't agree with the spiritual horrors I'd just witnessed would understand and approve my turning my back on the whole thing.

Since then I've mellowed out some, I've reminded myself that there ARE good Xtian organizations which seem to follow the actual precepts instead of using is as a self-righteous excuse for hatred, and I grew up in one. But I am still not a part of one and I never will be again. So I'm not sure if I'm "over it", per se, but I am healed.
Mar. 10th, 2003 07:15 pm (UTC)
I lost my faith in the Judeo Christian God when I was 15. Like many, I lost it due to a tragedy so powerful that I could not reconcile it with the concept of that God. To say I "lost" it is even an understatement - It was so thoroughly removed that it was if it had never been. Unlike most, I did not go through a "Fuck God" phase. That would have been as silly as saying "Fuck the Easter Bunny!" It was a turning point so radical, yet so amazingly freeing. To wake up and realize that everything I had been taught spiritually was wrong. To realize that life is made MORE precious, not less so, if there really isn't anything after this life. To cast aside childish and bratty rules laid down by men who have been dead for thousands of years, and furthermore mistranslated and their words twisted hundreds of times.

And I, much to my ever-present Delight and Amazement, have yet to "overcome" this loss. Agnostic Fo Life, fooz.
Mar. 10th, 2003 07:37 pm (UTC)
Heh... reminds me of an essay, can't remember where I read it, that influenced my current attitude.
I still believe in God. I believe in a lot of things. I think he's the current bully of the schoolyard, doesn't mean he's the only student. Doesn't mean any of the other students are worthy of orgasmic praise either.

The quote that I love was: "I'm not saying God or gods don't exist. I feel they exist, but I don't feel any particular need to worship them. Just like I know my kitchen table exists, but I don't fall on my knees every morning crying 'O Great Table, without whom we are naught!'"
Mar. 11th, 2003 06:27 am (UTC)
I think most of my faith was in the people that took part in the community. Each one I looked up to for some reason or another. When I got older and started to listen more and watch their actions and mannerism. I felt a bit confused by their actions and one day my great aunt broke the camels back with comments at a mall. I was with my friend and shopping. I choose to wear overalls that day was it was cold and they were cute looking, big deal right? Well my aunt who is supposed to be this Major Go Loving woman started to nag me about my looks and how I looked like a hick. Mind you I was in grade school and took a lot of things to heart. My friend on the other hand supported me and backed me up. I finally had enough and said, “ I thought it didn’t matter what I look like but what was inside my heart?” My aunt finally showed her true colors to me. “ People will not accept you if you look like trash.

I think that hurt a lot cause I trusted her and trusted what I was taught. When I got a little older and started going to a new church The elders there were wonderful but the peers were spiteful and cruel I disliked them and I tried to be nice to them all the time, but nothing.

So when I moved away I gave up going to Church and started to do look for something else. I was never one to agree on everything. And find my niche in what I believe in. myself. One person I can count on all the time, the one person who choose to allow people to hurt me or help me. It sounds selfish, but when it comes down to it. You are the one that chooses the paths.

I do not bash other people’s belief however I will bash that person in their face for being a hypocrite and representing something they are not.

As far as Santa Claws, easter bunny tooth fairy. I guess I never really let go of it the idea, but kind of grown up and realized they are good threats on kids HA!
Mar. 11th, 2003 01:11 pm (UTC)
Interesting, though rather vague, question, love.

It depends, really, on what the faith is in. If it's myself we're talking about, I've often lost faith in myself, but always get it back eventually. My faith in my beliefs doesn't really waver, though my participation in doing things related to them certainly does.

My faith in other people, however, once truly shaken is *VERY* hard to win back. There are exceptions, and the closer the person to me the more willing I am to forgive and reformulate my opinion.

~~Kt3, Pondering the Possible Continued Existence of Carcharodon Megalodon~~
Mar. 11th, 2003 01:49 pm (UTC)
Re: Faith
It's ment to be opened to anything .. Llosing faith in Dreams, Ideas, Beliefs, love ECT> You know..
Mar. 11th, 2003 08:25 pm (UTC)
Yes. Many things. Many people. Adapt to the evidence you have, and do what you need to do to be secure, but never assume what you're doing is RIGHT, or that you have all the answers. Or ever will. Most times, I wouldn't say I got over it, so much as I learned to factor it into the matrix of my life, and just move on. Like getting a terrible case of the flu -- it might wipe you out for a long time, but if it doesn't kill you, then at least you come out of the encounter with antibodies against catching it next time the bug's around.
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