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What I am going to do

I have searched inside me. I had to shift through forgotten pains and struggles I have went through. The happiness and love I have received. All the challenges that have left their battle scares on my soul. And what I found was a soul that needed be pushed up front to the light. I wondered lost in the fires of rebirth to long. And as of late waking up on a damp pillow knowing I have been crying in sleep again. Weather it is physical pain or emotional I have cried to long now. I want to find something inside me to give out that light I once knew. And I think I am finding it again. I have relied too much on the sanctuary of my dreams.
No more attempts to clip my wings. I am going to fly. No more holding back what I have inside me I am going to move forward. No more holding my voice back I will be heard


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May. 14th, 2002 10:11 am (UTC)
Phoenix Power, ACTIVATE!!!
Good for you! I am glad to hear that the pain and introspection is bringing about a good result. Often times I've had to be in such great pain that staying there is worse than the risk/fear of failure... and I don't want to do that anymore! Why beat yourself up before following your path? Just fly, wee Phoenix. Trust your wings.

May. 14th, 2002 10:15 am (UTC)
Re: Phoenix Power, ACTIVATE!!!
:: huggles :: I guess when they mean no pain no gain they really mean it.

hehehehe I am glad I am not the only one out there that is scared of failure and such.

And I am very lucky to have alot of Strong Women as my dear friends ;)
May. 14th, 2002 12:52 pm (UTC)
Re: Phoenix Power, ACTIVATE!!!
My theory is that once we can learn through joy instead of pain, we no longer have a need for human bodies - this earthly classroom will be superfluous! I hope to one day be proactive, intelligent and perceptive enough to get past the two-year-old mode of, "That hurts. Don't want to do that again."

Ghurrl, one day we will sip fruity rum drinks and discuss all the f@cked up things I've done to ensure I never had anything to lose... it's a kick in the pants, lemme tell ya!

::purrhuggles:: Like attracts like, sistah... and I'm glad the Fates see fit to let us lean on each other. Our strength from within is sweeter and more powerful when shared.
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