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Mutter UCKERS!!!!

I can not believe this..

1. I have another dream and this one made me cry.. Grrrrr

2. I get to work and find out they are canceling laser eye Surgery

3. I want to go home now and sulk about this.. BAH!



So about the dream that made me cry…

No mysterious man attacking me and saying I need to wake up, instead I see my grandmother [Those that know, my grandmother is dead] and her two guardians that are always there when shows up in my dreams. It was the same place we always meet in a dark café that in located no where in the sky with three supporting poles down to the earth that do not look sturdy enough to hold this place up but it does.

Any ways I was talking to her about things letting her know about things that she already knew but I guess she wanted to hear it from me. God I miss her so much, and I told her I did and she said its okay to miss someone but that I needed to stop blaming myself for her death. [See I was there when she died, called from college and drove home skipping classes to finding my grandmother on floor in pain telling me that she was not going to make it. I still blame myself for this, if only was there faster or helped her out more, if I wasn’t a brat about my time and not wanting to be around my aunt when she lived there too.] ::sighs:: moving right along.

I just shook my head and looked at her and said it’s hard to and realizing that it was not my fault is not the issue here realizing that I am helpless like the next creature towards death is something I can never accept graciously, but who can when someone is taken away from you? She placed her hand over mine and gave her smile and half chuckle.

I heard you are having issues sleeping lately. Is what she said next and that startled me a bit but I just nodded slightly and laughed it off. I told it wasn’t anything I could not handle on my own. She just paused for a moment and the two guardians on each side of her looked at each other and then back me with those black empty eyes. They never spoke once to me in a dream, not once. But this time the one I called Ash did, see Ash is about 6 ‘ at least pale black slick hair. And just empty blackness where eyes should be and there are but they are all black, just utterly creepy to me.

He spoke to me in away that I wanted to wake up it was an echo whisper that was all over the place and made me feel nauseated to my stomach for a moment cause it was like riding a roller coast blind folded.


“He will be back when you do not expect it.”

I looked at my grandmother and she just said “I have to go now.”

I sat there for a moment confused and reached out and grabbed Ash’s wrist, but not harsh just grasped and pleaded with him in silence to stay for a moment.

I asked him one question. “I have a friend that said that he could be an arch angel, is he one?”

Ash placed handed over the one that holding him down and made me release him.

“Everything will be okay.”

Not the answer I was looking for but I guess that will work for now while I do some research to see what is going in my life in making have these dreams.

Comments

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whitetigergeek
Oct. 30th, 2003 07:35 am (UTC)
why did they cancel the surgery. That's really sucky of them. Should I pay them a visit?

I think we should talk about your dreams sometime, one on one. I think your dreams are having a duel effect, but I want to ask you some questions to be sure of it. Still, I think your attention to detail in them is incredible.

Who said they could be an arch angel? I'm curious.

We'll talk soon.

-White Tiger
twilightfenix
Oct. 30th, 2003 07:57 am (UTC)
Loki Did in the previous post that he thought maybe the could have been a arch angel. :shrugs:

I am up for a one on one talk about the dream.. duel effect? What you do you think it could be?
whitetigergeek
Oct. 30th, 2003 11:14 am (UTC)
your dreams as of late seems to revolve around some kind of support that the future will be alright, yet at the same time as a warning. The tall man from the first seems to be the warning, and the familiar family member is the support you needed to face this danger. I'll ponder on this some more and I'll talk to you about it. I'm also curious to hear about redwing's links to these dreams.
snow_lynx
Oct. 30th, 2003 08:03 am (UTC)
Steph, this is really important:

What time did you fall asleep last night? What time did you possibly have this dream?
twilightfenix
Oct. 30th, 2003 08:17 am (UTC)
::thinks:: Well Let me see here.. finally passed around: 9:45 ish.. maybe 10ish.. I just rmember waking up about 1ish the first time and then 4ish the next.. :shrugs: Whhhhhyyyy are you asking me this..
snow_lynx
Oct. 30th, 2003 08:25 am (UTC)
*kablinks* Yeah. Hm. That's what I thought.

You coming home at the regular time tonight?
twilightfenix
Oct. 30th, 2003 08:56 am (UTC)
About 8ish.. Whhhhhhhyyyyyyyyy??!!!!!!!
snow_lynx
Oct. 30th, 2003 09:04 am (UTC)
I'll splain when you get here. Just... a series of really interesting coincidences. :)
twilightfenix
Oct. 30th, 2003 09:05 am (UTC)
Okays.. will wait in tourment over this all day then .. j/k!
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twilightfenix
Oct. 30th, 2003 10:20 am (UTC)
Re: Oh that is REALLY not fair!
We shall see what it is first and let you know ;)
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