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Flushing out the discontent

I woke up earlier than I intended today. I don’t know if it was the dream I had or the restless pawing of a cat knocking things over. I just know today I just don’t feel very happy, just kind of detached at the moment or is it more like discouraged. At any rate I feel like I have not enough with anything or anyone. I just feel like a complete failure about things at the moment. I not sure why I feel like this it might the dream I had I am not sure. Sometimes I wish I could stop the words that repeat in my head sometimes that I have heard in the past but the negative things in life seem more visible than the good ones at times.

I know it will pass, I just don’t like this feeling cause it feels like someone has strapped me to a chair in a room and had everyone I have ever cared about yelling at me telling me how worthless I am. This is a feeling that makes me want to take showers repeatable times in a day hoping it will just wash away but there is always some infection growing back some little word someone[s] said that I allowed to build up and then I just want to explode.

Everyone is allowed to have flaws. Some people are allowed to turn the cheek accept the comments of those flaws others are too weak to handle them. When does it get to the point when even the strong people get rubbed raw enough to snap?


Jun. 28th, 2005 08:36 pm (UTC)
Nice shoes....
Sure...sometimes....and heck, I even mean it ocassionally...


hey there stephers...they are less derived from wisdom than from expereience.

I have been in the deep dark crevace where it felt as if I would never climb out, and felt even less inclined to try...because I just did worth it.

and while life still has it's ups and downs, I now realize that it is not true...not for me, nor for any else.

(shallow comment ahead).

let me know the next time you are not wearing a bra, we can do lunch!

peace and love stephers.
Jun. 28th, 2005 08:54 pm (UTC)
... Wanna Dance?
Soo When are you free to come and visit ?
Jun. 28th, 2005 08:58 pm (UTC)
Re: ... Wanna Dance?
Dance...ooo...I need dance lessons....like really!

I am in town for a while, so just email me (or message me, I am on IM and yahoo...both as loudanddeep) and we can get our schedules worked out.


Jun. 29th, 2005 12:10 pm (UTC)
Re: ... Wanna Dance?
Well This weekend I will be out of town and the weekend after that I am busy buuuuutt the weekend after that I have a party..