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Fuuuuuuuckkkk..

Well It happened.. I finally started my God damn Curse of the crimson waves.

::sighs:: And life goes on .. and on .. and on..

any ways.. I had fun last night, Got to hang with the A-Kon Boardies and met a few more briefly. I am rather happy I did go cause today is already starting off on the wrong foot.

So far no idea if I will have a home to live in. I am getting mixed emoitions of stress, rage, panic and fear.

Krys isnt feeling good andI feel like a totaly bitch but this has to be done ASAP. I move out on July 13th. And this getting too close for confort.

GOD DAMN IT ALL. I would rip some assholes if I lived there or something. :: thinks:: Does it have to be a 30 days notice or coul dit be a 60 day or something like that.

::sighs:: Damn damn damn.. I hate this feeling of helpless to do anything but bitch about it. and Krys if you are reading this, this not directed at you I am just really not in the mood to deal with this crap of waiting longer.


If it wasnt for this " Bloody curse" I would start crying right now. But something inside me wont let me. I feel as if The Fucking animal inside be is hold me back from killing somehting. Goo figure..


any ways.. What am I going to do when I get off work.. I have to pick up supplies..

then I am fucking packing some more until I can sleep. then I am getting up working out.. then other things.

Dude.. I am too exhausted mentally and phyiscally ..

and up date on Vacation .. I fucking cash in my vacation time so I can have extra money.

Cause I dont have time to use my vacation time. [sucks? yeah... ]
remind me never to hold someone's ideas of plans over mine. I dont care who they are. I am going to do my own thing for now on and not hold my breath on promises that are soon forgotten.

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kangitanka3
Jun. 28th, 2002 09:49 am (UTC)
Honey....
Sweetie, I feel for ya. Sorry you're have to go through so much shit right now. :~(

If you need any help, advice, a shoulder to cry one, etc. please let me know.

Love,
~~KT~~
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 09:50 am (UTC)
Re: Honey....
Thanks Bro..

Sometimes.. bad things happen bulk.. ::sighs:: Dude! I am soo bitchy I am afraid I am going to hurt some one.. =( Most liely already have.. :: bangs her head::
kangitanka3
Jun. 28th, 2002 11:03 am (UTC)
Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Honey, take it easy, 'K?

Though sometimes it's near impossible not be a total bitch. Believe me, I understand

Love,
~~The Bird What Flaps In the Night~~
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 11:33 am (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
At this moment I feel like a burden to everyone.
The more I think about the current situation the more I feel myself wanting to just cry in frustration. And my heart is just closing up again and I don’t know why. It’s like I protecting myself again against everyone when it’s no one fault. I cant understanding it, I don’t want to be touched, I don’t want any one to talk to me. But right then I need a hug or something. I don’t get it. I hate this feeling almost that I don’t want to depend on anyone ever, Just want to be alone not to wallow in my own pity but to just get things done. I hate it. And I am sure it’s me over reacting, but every time I try so hard to rationalize everything I get more angry. This cant be normal for any one, I guess I just let everything build up to the point where I am hurt myself.

In my head I thinking why cant I trust any one. But I do! ARGHHH!!!

I wish I wasn’t at work .. but I have to be here cause I need to work. I had to throw up three times already thanks to myself getting so upset over everything. I hate my self for this.
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 11:56 am (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
If Krys is too ill to call or visit today, why don't you call the complex for her? And if it needs to be her that calls, say you are her. Ask why they won't release rental history to the new complex.

In the case of our TAA contracts, we HAD to have given notice to vacate in order for our complex to release rental history to our potential new complexes. I think that's kind of silly, because, if you end up not getting approved to live anywhere, then you can't stay in your current apt, either. It's like taking a leap of faith.

Then again, I wouldn't worry. It's apparently REALLY hard to get turned down for most apartments. Mostly all they require is little or no criminal history, maybe an extra deposit, and that your income is 2.5x the rent.

Deep breaths, Rene. And chocolate. Lots of chocolate. :)
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:05 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Trust me, If I had thier number. I would be calling them right now and ripping thier throats out for all off this BS.

::sighs:: I am really trying hard not to be a downer and a bitch.. But with everything going on. I dont have time to play contractual apartment games with littel bitches
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:07 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
I forget their number, but they're listed in 411 ;) Or go to www.rent.com and search for complex name "SUMMIT Camino Real" and call the number they list. That should get you someone in the office.
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:08 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Just facilitating as much violence as I can ;D
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:19 pm (UTC)
BWUAH HA HA HA HAAAAA!!!!
972.735.1300
xkookykrysx
Jun. 28th, 2002 01:18 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
972.735.1300 try calling them.. I will try to get myself down to the office, but no gaurantees.
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 01:24 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Found out the problem. They can't release your renter's history until you turn in written notice to vacate. If they do, they're giving out your information without your permission, and for all they know, the apartments calling for your information could be entirely unsolicited.
xkookykrysx
Jun. 28th, 2002 01:38 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Thing is, I GAVE Them written permission!!! Ask Steph - she wrote the note for me, and we dropped it in the box!!!

stupid apartment complex :P
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 01:42 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Okayyyy... Cailet's post said you had yet to turn in 30 day notice. If you have already turned it in, I volunteer to call and be "representaion on retainer for the plaintiff" to get them to DO THEIR JOBS or I will walk upstairs to the DA's office with this, as I've got my next week's calendar clear of cases and can dedicate all my prosecution time to yours.

*lies well under pressure* ;D
xkookykrysx
Jun. 28th, 2002 02:53 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Clarification: I turned in my written permission for them to release my rental history. I was told that was all I needed to submit.

I didn't want to submit a 30 day notice, because I don't want Cailet to get screwed over and move out earlier than she has to.

But, looks like I have to be out by July 28th, and hopefully Cailet can stay until the end of the lease.
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 03:30 pm (UTC)
Re: Don't Bang Your Head, You'll Need That Later!
Couple of things you can do. If Cailet's not on the lease, then there's no worries. She can stay if she likes/needs to by signing a new lease (month to month) with them. Like Trot and I did when Turtle moved in with Raven.

Second, you can turn in a more-than-30-day notice. (i.e., turn in a 60 day notice), so you aren't pressured to be out by the end of July. You can do that. You just can't turn in a LESS than 30 day notice.

Hope they finally send it through!
peppermintkiss
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:04 pm (UTC)
I'll try to help
I'm going to attack the complex tonight when I get home. They's caused us SOOOO much trouble lately. Not just this. I'll see if I can shake them into submission.
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:30 pm (UTC)
Re: I'll try to help
Thanks.

Let me know what happens. Also if you can give me a number just in case I need to rip into them a bit on behalf of Krys.

thanks
Phoenix
xkookykrysx
Jun. 28th, 2002 01:18 pm (UTC)
Re: I'll try to help
972.735.1300
sandmansister
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:48 pm (UTC)
Wishing for My Magick Wand...
Don't know what else to do but bleed for you, my friend. There's some Cosmic Stank out there right now and it seems no one is immune to the reek of it all. It's toxic and all-pervasive. BLAH!

Just be gentle with yourself; do what you have to do to endure, knowing you have earned a lot of good friends who want what is best for you. We may be clumsy about expressing it at times, but what's in the heart is true... so hang tough, FireWoman. For me, the worst fear is breaking down because I'm not sure I'll get whole again... but that's actually the start of the healing. Maybe it's similar for you.

You've lifted my spirits with your kind words and generous heart. I wish you the same threefold. It's rightfully yours.
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 12:58 pm (UTC)
Re: Wishing for My Magick Wand...
Thank you so much..

Being so supportive and trying hard to help me out with words when there is no one around. I feel some what better and most likely will improve.

Just wish people didnt always have to deal this all at once. It's not cool.
But I guess it's to but everyone in a supportive mood to back everyone else to make a stronger pillar.

Just got to make sure that pillar isnt craked like my nerves right now.. heh. :: huggles::

You can be Fairy Hottie Mama any ol day ;)
kangitanka3
Jun. 28th, 2002 02:23 pm (UTC)
Hmmm....
Don't mean to sound heartless, Phoenix (Hope you're having a MUCH better day now!) and Otter (You too!), but I hope this doesn't prevent/cause problems with Penguin and Collin moving into 725 once it's vacated. They still need to be leaned on to get their applications in, but I haven't seen either of them in days...

Hope it works out for the two of you!

Love,
~~KT~~

twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 02:32 pm (UTC)
Re: Hmmm....
I am supposed to be getting happy ass out my place on July 13th
snow_lynx
Jun. 28th, 2002 02:50 pm (UTC)
Re: Hmmm....
Did you get in touch with Camino Real? Complexes usually need a week to two weeks to clean up the apartment you're moving into. KILL THEM! ALL OF THEM!!! Let me help!!!

Seriously, did you call them?
xkookykrysx
Jun. 28th, 2002 03:00 pm (UTC)
Re: Hmmm....
I went down there and fought with them. I still need to fill out a form that needs to be notorized officially, but they are supposedly faxing over my information now. :(
twilightfenix
Jun. 28th, 2002 03:13 pm (UTC)
Re: Hmmm....
Well We shall find out when I call tomorrow and find out.. AND I will Rip thier Asses If nothing is done.
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