Twilight: twi·light n.
The diffused light from the sky during the early evening or early morning when the sun is below the horizon and its light is refracted by the earth's atmosphere.
The time of the day when the sun is just below the horizon, especially the period between sunset and dark.
Dim or diffused illumination.
A period or condition of decline following growth, glory, or success: in the twilight of his life.
A state of ambiguity or obscurity.
I think this is where I am at in my life it so that is how it feels. Part of the reason I picked this was cause right at that moment of time in the day it’s quite and nothing seems to shatter that moment and that is what I like most.
Lately I have felt very drained and distant on things. Almost like I need to looks for something but yet I am lost or confused. I have no way to really describe it properly just I feel transparent and as fragile as glass. I keep having passed memories popping up and reminding of things I thought that I had over come but really I guess I have not let go and wonder still what the truth or real answer is. Everyone goes on their little or long journeys and yet this one seems to have drained me a lot and I wonder if I will ever get that energy back or if it’s lost. All I have are my dreams or so I thought to but now those seems diluted and barely a fragment of what they used to be.
It does seem miserable but I don’t wallow in this I tried to over come it and find my answer, the truth or what ever it maybe. Perhaps it’s just this overwhelming pressure that I have placed on myself and how I punish self silently for my mistakes. I wonder, no that isn’t productive to wonder I need to discover and maybe I can hope I am reborn not as the old person but someone better that can reach new heights without those old limitations.