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Sleeping Pills and Strange Dreams

I have been taking my sleeping pills alsmot every night while I am at home. And I keep having very strange dreams. I mean some of them are just sick and twisted.

:;sighs:: Need to stop watching these dark movies for awhile. =(

Any ways, Last night Krys and gothboy were home getting the network up.
Krys has service, I dont. =(

Gothboy said he will get this up by this weekend and he promised. I just dont like people promising me things like that when I just have this feeling.. Anyways...

I miss my family alot And wish some of them would come over Sunday to meet some of my other friends I have made. I am really proud of myself for goin gout there and meeting more new people with a common intrest of what I like to do or talk about. Makes me feel that I am trying to improve myself.

Strange? Nahhhhh..
Job situation.. round 3 is approching us quickly.. And I have no idea if I will be one those luckey people that will be apart of this class. I can hope and do the very best I can.

Emoitions lately have been desiring change.. What changes I dont know yet .. Something that will improve me as a person and help others benfit from.

Sometimes I feel I am not here for myself but for others. The reason I state this is because I feel better about helping others out. just a few times do I ever feel like it's a burden and I want "me" time.

Well I am rambaling now.

Phoenix..only known as Stepherzilla, The queen of monsters.


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Jul. 25th, 2002 10:42 am (UTC)
Love you, sis
Dun be sad. And yeah, quit watchin' the weird ones. ;D

Speakin' of weird ones, "Vanilla Sky," we learned, will mess with your head. Ferret said she'd heard it was good, she thought - and I figured, it has Tom Cruise in it. Who cares if he's knitting a sweater or blowing up bad guys? It's Tom Cruise. We brought the DVD home and by the end of it, Trot, Woof, Ferret and myself were sitting, staring at the screen with furrowed brows, thinking, "....YEAH. Okay. So. Hm. Uh..."

Another mindf**k (which we watched the day before) is "The Others" with Nicole Kidman. And if you watch The Others first, and then watch Vanilla Sky, you are amused every time someone says "Open Your Eyes".

Anyway. Perhaps renting Return To Neverland with me in a couple weeks will do you good! :D

Jul. 25th, 2002 10:53 am (UTC)
OK, I *suppose* you can be the Queen of Monsters. Just remember who the Queen of Darkness is, though. (evil grin)

Seriously, I hope you learn whatever lesson it is that you need to right now, and that you find some peace, love. You deserve it. :~)

All my love,
~~KT of the Mad Grin~~
Jul. 25th, 2002 11:32 am (UTC)
Re: Harumph!
Ooh, ooh... Can I still be the Ice Queen??? Ooh! Ooh! *waving hand, holding it up by the elbow with the other hand* Pleeeeeeeeeze? CanicanicanI? MMMMM! *straining hand in the air* Pretty please with a sno-cone on top?

*snowflake blinkblinks*
Jul. 25th, 2002 11:55 am (UTC)
Re: Harumph!

Well, yes. But remember that I get all icy winds as part of my purview. You can have the precip. ;~)

~~KT the Queen o' Darkness~~
Jul. 25th, 2002 01:47 pm (UTC)
Re: Harumph!
Then that means I am the Prince of Phreaks.

*grins devilishly*

he he heeeeeee.

Jul. 25th, 2002 02:13 pm (UTC)
Re: Harumph!
:: looks around:: Man this Family one Messed up Royaltiy.. :shrugs::

Oh well I am content..
Jul. 25th, 2002 11:04 am (UTC)
I miss my family alot And wish some of them would come over Sunday to meet some of my other friends I have made.

Perhaps I missed an email or something, but did you actually ask the fam to come over on Sunday? Just a thought... we've not actually ASKED hardly anyone over yet.

Speaking of, is it alright if we have the Tustins over on Saturday night (they are a maybe, not a definite yes).

Also, I'm getting soooo excited about our movie night. Personally, I want our house to be totally in order before we get too many people over, but I can understand about wanting people to see the new place, and see it NOW! ;)

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