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Depressed..

I dont know what the hell it is..

But I am desperatly missing my cat Listo.. I dont think I will ever have another cat ever again the rate I am going. I seem to find myself either witha room mate with a cat. Which is alright.. but it's not "My" Cat. And then there is that off chance I might move in with someone.. slim chances I will ever have one..


It just sux fucking monkey nut sacks. Yeah okay so that was really foul of me to say and most likely selfish .. But that is how I am feeling right at this moment. I just what things to go my way just for some time.

Wait wait wait.. It has.. ::sighs:: Just have to work harder I guess. I just dont see how I can work any harder. I am just about to go nuts.

now I am going into tagents..

1) in a year or so .. if I don thave any god damn plans.. I am just dont know what I am going to do next.
2) I dont think I could live with mom again. But it would help me out alot more.
3) I dont really think there is another option but find my own place so otter can go where ever she needs to go ..
4) Could join the green peace.. but I am too spoil enough said.
5) Could join the Army.. But I think I am to old and not to mnetion I would get my ass kicked around.
6) become a nun? :: blank look:: Nahhhh..
7) move far far away change my name? That is running away Screw that notion!
8) Let's face it I will find a cheap plot of land build a prefade home and live like a lil old lady with all the Cats I want! [Yeah see there we come to a full circle] And have a big fat dildo..

Okay .. Hmm Now you are wondering about me and goth boy..

Well let me put this to a real intresting propective for everyone to

CLEARLY understand.

I am not going to assume what the future will be. I did that once already and got my soul and heart crushed. Mind you this was all my fault. But I dont think I would handel that type of hurt. If I just keep it a little more open and real I can atleast be surprised at the unexpected things in life.

and this is why I get 79% maddness rating people.. I am screwed in the HEAD!

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kymberlynn
Aug. 21st, 2002 12:20 am (UTC)
grrrr bity bite bite
Feel ya .. on almost everything.. so can I build my house next to yours? I promise to get a different prefade....

*misses her kitty and goes to find a book to hide in*
snow_lynx
Aug. 21st, 2002 05:49 am (UTC)
Re: grrrr bity bite bite
LOL - row houses. ;)
*pouts, is allergic to most kitties, and has NEVER had a free-roaming house-pet in her life*
snow_lynx
Aug. 21st, 2002 05:48 am (UTC)
OY!
Quit raggin' on my sister! I'll have you know that in over a thousand years I've never known this girl to NOT have dawnings that outstrip my wisest moments of Clarity, so you call her crazy again and I'll come over there and beat you up!

...or at least hold you down and tickle you senseless. ;)

Besides, is it enough for now that I know a whole bunch of people who think you are one of the cleverest, nicest, most intriguing, most adorable, most promising girls they know?
twilightfenix
Aug. 21st, 2002 07:42 am (UTC)
Re: OY!
0.o

Share me what you are smoking!! :: giggles:: Just kidding.. You know how I get.. All about destory the castle of sand then going back and rebuilding it
snow_lynx
Aug. 21st, 2002 07:57 am (UTC)
Okay, but you can borrow my spade if you want.
*hands over little blue plastic spade*

As long as I'm playing in your sandb-- beach... Wow... this place is HUGE. I bet you could build whatever you want here. ;)
xkookykrysx
Aug. 21st, 2002 07:22 am (UTC)
don't worry
I won't leave you hanging... The job in NYC is most likely to fall through.

I like having you as my roomie - a lot a lot! And you can commandier the Bartok's affections all you like. I know he's not yours, but he's an attention hog, and sure to give you some lovin'! :D
kymberlynn
Aug. 21st, 2002 08:39 am (UTC)
next year
hey not sure how much hope this gives... but my lease is up in Feb. and my roomie is making me nuts... lemme know
kangitanka3
Aug. 21st, 2002 08:45 am (UTC)
Could You Hand Me That Oar?
In many ways I'm in the same boat as you, sweetness, so I understand.

I *SERIOUSLY* miss my cats (who are now living with my parents) too. And while BB73 and I have thought about getting one, it would mean not ever having over several very allergic friends of ours (especially Jack, but others as well). So we haven't. (sigh)

As for the sand castle metaphor, I just have to quote the much beloved St. Jimi of Hendrix: "Castles made of sand fall into the sea, eventually."

Hang in there, dear. (Wow, can't believe I just uttered such a cliche, but it's true) You're one of the strongest people I know, and I know you'll get over this. :~D

All my love,
~~KT Darkwing~~

twilightfenix
Aug. 21st, 2002 10:38 am (UTC)
Re: Could You Hand Me That Oar?
::giggles:: Sometimes the stranges cliches or old ones are the wisest
kangitanka3
Aug. 21st, 2002 11:41 am (UTC)
Re: Could You Hand Me That Oar?
Very true. (kisses you on the forehead)

Love,
~~KT of the Frazzled Nerves~~
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